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I'm at fault as well, always making you and the others worry...and I know. I know it's enough that I'm here, but I don't want to...I don't want to become that sort of delicate person who can't stand on his own, least of all to everyone from home.
It's--!! [Not like that. It isn't... But it is. It's not that Heisuke thinks Yamanami is delicate or even incapable of being a leader anymore. He just...
He reaches up and scratches at the chest scar hidden under his clothes, a nervous habit he's developed since the draft.]
....It's not...that. It's...
[Hard to explain and something Heisuke doesn't know how to talk about.]
Sorry. It ain't your fault, Yamanami-san. We're gonna worry no matter what. We're friends and all. S'what friends do.
[He waits quietly as Heisuke fumbles with words. It's reassuring to hear that his assistant doesn't think of him that way (or just won't admit it to his face a small, cynical part of his mind says), but he doesn't want anyone to worry.
It's...still his fault. It's his fault for not saying anything to them- and yet he can't tell them because no one would understand.]
I know. [Sannan smiles faintly.] But you don't need to worry so often. I'll be fine.
[But he does have to worry. Every time he sees that scar, he worries. He remembers that they're all just pretending at being okay again and that it's not really. He remembers that they live in a different house from the others because things are still weird; not in the way that they can even talk about either. It brings back that time between Yamanami committing seppuku and when Heisuke joined the Goryoeiji and it hurts to think about.
He does have to worry and he looks down, still scratching absently at the scar.]
....Yeah, I know...I just...ain't used to this place and all its weirdness yet... I don't know what ta' expect or... [Or how to talk about this. He trails off and scuffs at the floor again.]
[Sannan gives a quiet "ha".] That's understandable; it's only been a few months, after all. [--of borrowed time. He would be dead right now, wouldn't he? If they were still at home.]
Anyway, that was all. [How to end this NOT awkwardly...
Re: September 4th | Action
Date: 2011-09-10 11:15 am (UTC)[Ouch. Right in the gut. Heisuke looks away, scuffing his foot against the ground again.]
....Sorry.
Re: September 4th | Action
Date: 2011-09-11 08:20 am (UTC)[He takes a slow breath.]
I'm at fault as well, always making you and the others worry...and I know. I know it's enough that I'm here, but I don't want to...I don't want to become that sort of delicate person who can't stand on his own, least of all to everyone from home.
Re: September 4th | Action
Date: 2011-09-12 12:41 am (UTC)He reaches up and scratches at the chest scar hidden under his clothes, a nervous habit he's developed since the draft.]
....It's not...that. It's...
[Hard to explain and something Heisuke doesn't know how to talk about.]
Sorry. It ain't your fault, Yamanami-san. We're gonna worry no matter what. We're friends and all. S'what friends do.
Re: September 4th | Action
Date: 2011-09-13 03:45 am (UTC)It's...still his fault. It's his fault for not saying anything to them- and yet he can't tell them because no one would understand.]
I know. [Sannan smiles faintly.] But you don't need to worry so often. I'll be fine.
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Date: 2011-09-16 04:48 am (UTC)He does have to worry and he looks down, still scratching absently at the scar.]
....Yeah, I know...I just...ain't used to this place and all its weirdness yet... I don't know what ta' expect or... [Or how to talk about this. He trails off and scuffs at the floor again.]
Re: September 4th | Action
Date: 2011-09-20 08:56 am (UTC)Anyway, that was all. [How to end this NOT awkwardly...
...er.]
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Date: 2011-09-21 06:52 am (UTC)Oh.
[Awkward.]
Um... Hey, you wanna see a trick I taught Tammy?
Re: September 4th | Action
Date: 2011-09-23 05:48 am (UTC)...what did you teach her?
[He looks slightly wary because...this is Heisuke.]
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Date: 2011-09-24 03:36 am (UTC)[Sort of.]
She's still, uh, learning. But it's pretty awesome when she gets it right!
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Date: 2011-09-27 06:46 am (UTC)How often is that?
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Date: 2011-10-02 05:34 am (UTC)Twice.
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